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A decade ago while browsing the Internet I came across an interesting legend about a Japanese girl who wanted to make 1000 origami cranes in order to end World War 2. Legend has it that if you fold 1000 origami cranes and make a wish your wish will come true. I did the foolish thing of making my wish public after completing the respective task. I asked for happiness. What happened later made me steer away from the true course of my life. I now feel I have been given the life of someone else without people showing me any mercy. Of course that leaves me frustrated and enraged that strangers got to decide the way things turned out in my life and not me. I now don't know who to trust knowing that my own family is lying to me. I feel copied by everyone and that frustrates me even more. I feel like I have to prove myself and show how great I can be and put myself under tons of pressure in order to succeed. And I wonder is this all there is? I think if I were in another country my life would have been better. I feel unhappy although I read books on the topic of happiness and made to love, which is a feeling I am uncomfortable with. My main interest is the feeling of happiness because unlike love it does not imply any suffering. My point is that you should never make your wishes public because people will always find a way to prevent you from achieving your goals. So it's best to just think of what you wish for and all will be taken care of. I observe funny coincidences in my life and these coincidences bring a smile on my face. Strangely enough what I write down seems to come true so I think there is something magical about creating. Although I am having trouble imagining I seem to be able to express myself really well in writing. You could try to have a journal in which to take down your wishes and plans for life and let things take care of themselves. I, for one, am open to everything. I go with the flow of life and do my best to keep informed. Today I have learned about the three life paths in hinduism: the knowledge path, the duty path and the love path. I think the path for me is the knowledge path. However I know people who walk all three paths and are really happy for it. Oh, well. Whatever floats people's boat.