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Can't help but notice that I am surrounded by demanding people who promote a culture of excellence and high-achievement. I wonder why that is. Growing up I placed little demands on myself and managed to cut myself some slack. I've always thought self-flagellation and holding oneself to surreal standards stems from narcissistic, abusive parents. I don't see the rationality behind it. I guess companies nowadays have learned to exploit our feelings of not being good enough and our desperation to put food on the table and ask us to do the impossible. It's this sort of strange exchange between sadists and masochists where the sadists exploit one's low self-worth while the masochists willingly submit to being tormented. I've noticed that whenever I put my strengths on the table there's always going to be one motherucker to turn them into weaknesses. People love bringing me down. Oh, well. I just hope they don't wake up one day and another motherucker is pulling the same stunt on them.